Need Groceries, Note To Self.

Oatmeal & Blueberries & I Need To Shoot With An Actual Camera.

My go-to breaky. Delish.
I should snap pics w/my camera...but I love the grainy Blackberry shots.

Guerilla Fashion Shoot. 109mg/dL

Yesterday's Fashion Shoot & The Menu:
1/2 Tuna Fish Sandwich
Strawberries
Cashews
Brownies
Chips
Carrots
Proseco

Shoot went well...BS maintained all the stress & lack of food in 9 hour period.

Stay Gold. 165mg/dL

Even In The Shower?

You do what you have to do.

How Low Can You Go? 38mg/dL Apparently!

Yikes. NO good. I have zero idea what happened but all I could do was shovel brown sugar into my mouth, spoonful after loving spoonful. It sucked. I'd take being High over being Low any day of the week. This was from last week...

Faux Fashion or Why I Want To Leave This Town. ___mg/dL

This guy probably lives a great life. I just want to cut his hair and restyle his wardrobe. Sigh...just because it bugs me doesn't mean I have the right, right? I was in Safeway debating a Lean Cuisine or a Veggie burrito for dinner when this gem caught my eye.

Sweet Invisible Body by Lisa Roney 221 mg/dL

Prologue Quote: "If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people." -Virginia Woolf, "The Leaning Tower"

"I had to make daily and hourly decisions that determined if I stayed alive." -Lisa Roney

This is a great book; It is a really intense read...I hope to post something of merit which moves or depicts me as I devour each chapter. There is something comforting about a good author whom tells her realities with Diabetes, it isn't some doctor's take on what it is like...it is the real deal. Beautiful and tragic, but real.

World Cup Fever At The Bar I'm In. 227mg/dL

Too bad USA lost...but the crowd still went wild.

Nothing New. 145 mg/dL

Just Desserts! 187 mg/dL

Last night me and a girlfriend had a great dinner at a newly relocated restaurant. We HAD to have dessert...this one seemed to be smiling at us.

Afternoon Delights.

Day off. Errands ran. Time to self.

Don't You Glamour Me! 93mg/dL

Tonight I am catching up on True Blood season 2! I love this show...I still want to write a novel about a Diabetic and vampire who fall in love...step aside Twilight.

Happy Feet 158mg/dL

I take REALLY good care of my feet. I love to pamper them with a good pedicure. This week's color is Flip Flop Fantasy by China Glaze. Luv.

Hazardous To Your Keyboard. ___mg/dL

Blood on the keyboard.  Happens all the time.  Deal. 

Shooting Up ???mg/dL

I don't use enough insulin with most meals to require the usage of these insulin pens; the small needle caps which make usage of pens super easy and convenient. I actually use syringes.  But since insurance is only paying for the insulin pens, not the bottles...yada, yada, ya...is anyone getting tired of all this...everyday drama?  Yep, me too. 

I'll Wait In Los Angeles, I'll Wait In The Pouring Sun. 168 mg/dL

Hazy day.  Dreaming of Los Angeles and the smell of cocoa butter in my hair.  My screen saver reminds me of my dreams.  

Losing It!!! 388mg/dL

I totally lost it today. 

I just cracked.

I ate a bunck of these little suckers and now feel like total sweaty crap.  

Never worth it, never.

Ever.  

Nope.  

:(

Blood Sugar Breakdown and Who Will Do The Dishes? 59mg/dL

I crashed while cleaning up my pad; all of a sudden everything was blurry and off kilter, I couldn't grasp anything and was so shaky that I thought to myself, "This is it, the first time I'll be calling 911," ugh!  I managed to align my sugar with 3 boxes of apple/pear juice and an english muffin...still in a haze.  Hate the haze.  :(

Hangover Cure? 90mg/dL

Drank too much last night; I used to be so good at going out, now I just pay for it SO much the next day.  I woke up 2 times to fumble for juice boxes. Thankfully my fridge, desk & nightstand are all lined with them.  Tomorrow I think I may start a cleanse.  

Party Time! 126mg/dL

Here is a snapshot of my kit broken down to fit into a small clutch. I was at a fashion event and couldn't very well show up w/my usually jumbo bag, now could I? It is too bulky to remain in its case.  Note: I have started to Re-bedazzle it!  

Summer Breeze Makes Me Feel Fine...201mg/dL

Arrgh....I have been out of the blogging loop, but I have been snapping pics with my trusty Blackbery.  Here is one from my rooftop sunbathing session earlier today-the one I will publish that is!  xo

Testing strip bread trail, #2

On the treadmill testing is tricky.  I leave a trail again...Ha, ha. 

Sana, sana colita de rana.

If you grew up in a Latin household, you get this, and more than likely you wish Nana was here to fix it. I am fighting the ICK that is going around; I will beat it...just like an egg.  

Work It Girl. 213 mg/dL

I love to run. Running has been my exercise of choice for years.  So the fact that running hits my blood sugars and makes me run REALLY low is frustrating, but I have been experimenting with various carb : insulin ratios, food consumption and these handy little goo packs.  

Good Morning Low Blood Sugar 69mg/dL

Dizzy. Shakes. Blurred vision. Nauseous. Fingers don't work. Sweats. Irritable. Aggro.

I hate waking up to low bs.  Any bs, frankly.  

Sugarfree! Sugar-what? 126 mg/dL

I kinda like this sugarfree creamer in my morning coffee.  Just saying.  

Hates Job, Seeks New One. 203 mg/dL

Working on my resume today. I realized that I want to earn a living which makes me happy, not stressed.  I make good money but I am SO unfullfilled and bored and I dread waking up to go in, mostly because I work with a lot of real jerks...but WOW, what a euphoric feeling I am having by now seeking something greater than what I've been settling for.  

PS. Being on my feet 9+ hours a day isn't optimal to the health of my feet, which is a direct concern living with Diabetes, so this is how I connect it to 365. Oh, and the stress part, which makes your sugars run HIGH. Sigh, I'm my own chem experiment.  Wish me luck!  

3-6-5. 24-7. One Year. 123 mg/dL

This is my post-it reminder on my laptop; Daily posts are already becoming challenging!  I'm finding myself wondering what I will gain from looking back on all this.

Am I learning anything or am I just forcing myself to post daily for nothing?  

ugh.  

Chocolate cravings. ??? mg/dL

Dark chocolate with coconut bits.  So good.  And, yes, I CAN HAVE IT!  

Testing! Testing! Testing! 444 mg/dL

I test all the time when I am at work, I get so busy and I can't always trust the way I feel...since my job is really fast-paced and stressful.  Today SUCKED...I totally crashed and I felt like shit.  Pukey, dizzy, blurry vision, headaches, off-balance, and bitchy.  I can't even explain how shitty it feels...

Bruised. 206 mg/dL

Giving myself shots is easier now than a year ago; however, I still bruise ALL the time.  My arms look worse...

Bills, Bills, Bills. 138 mg/dL

I am so grateful to have insurance!  When I was diagnosed I didn't and it made for some scary days; no one should ever have to decide between food, shelter and insulin! I'm thankful that I persevered and was granted some sponsorships from Lily and Accu-check-and I am also happy to report I JUST paid off the hospital bills!  Yay...$10,000 could have bought me a car...a trip around the world...a move to NYC...but it bought me my LIFE.  And I can't be sad about that.  

Needle disposal. 106mg/dL

For some reason I have my needle disposal containers atop my fridge.  I'm not sure why I haven't tossed any of them yet.  I was hoping to use all the used strips for an art project one day...but maybe I just keep them there to remind me that I've made it this far.  Like a victory reminder or something.  I dunno.  

Bret Michaels Wins Celebrity Apprentice!

I'm glad he won for the cause! Also, while I am sad he is struggling so much with his health, I am super happy he is beating everything and still coming out on top.  Did I ever mention that I almost named my youngest brother "Bret Michaels" due to my young crush?  Caleb, you are SO lucky mom didn't agree! xo

Healthy and delicious. 163 mg/dL

Healthy dinner: Brown rice (40 carbs), bok choy, carrots, wild salmon, teriyaki sauce (30carbs)

= 5 units of Humalog

Medical ID. 164 mg/dL

One of my many medical id's.  this is for the gym. i wonder if i should get a tattoo accross my chest...better safe than sorry, right?

Foot Check! 154 mg/dL

Never mind the lint.  Ha. My feet have been doing well so far, knock on wood.  I have noticed numbness while running or on my feet for too long...but my sugars are decent so I'm not immediately worried about neuropathy.  

Lancet Love. 143 mg/dL

I kinda dig these little purple lancets.  It really is the little things that make you smile with the big D.  It is like getting new toys when something fun or new comes out on the market.

Diabetic bread trail. 139 mg/dL

I found an old test strip on my stairwell this morning; not even sure it is mine.  If I test on average 7-10 times a day, and I have been (diagnosed) Diabetic for 606 days, that would roughly mean I have tested my BS about 5300 times.  I probably could leave an Accu-Chek trail from here to London by now...ha.  

This is how I roll. 171 mg/dL

This is what I roll with in my purse, pretty much everyday.  Apple juice as it acts the quickest for me; Almonds for a quick snack, tides me over; "Sugar-goo" for quick fast-acting glucose; raisins...they work for me! I'm a walking snack kiosk.  Ha, ha.  

Blood Sugar Testing. 146 mg/dL

IT NEVER ENDS, HUH?

I wonder how much blood I have "given" to this disease to date? I'd make a great date to a vampire.  haha.  

Diabetes 365. May 16th, 2010: My Kit

Inspired by the Diabetes 365 project, I decided to post a Diabetes related pic every day. I thought it would be a great way to chronicle my 2nd year in the world of the big D. And a potential way to release the frustrations via blog-land and not on my friends. Or my clients.

This one is entitled: My kit.

DIABETES 365 PROJECT

Graphic by: Six Until Me

92mg/dL Sipping on a Juicy Juice

I'm a little low and sipping on a juice box.